
I love Post-it notes, and I use them all the time.
My latest use for them is to help me practice for my upcoming Karate black belt test in October. I have each kata written out on one note, and once I practice it each day I move it over to the other side of the fridge. It seems to be working for me better than a check off list. The lop-sided bunch of post it notes won't let me forget that I have more to do each day.
And I need that!
I really should have tested for my black belt a few years ago, but life has a funny way of detouring things. My two boys and their dad tested for their belts back then, but I quit Karate classes to take a break.
A really long break.
A couple of years ago I went back. My life was kind of falling apart at the time, and I went back mostly to get out of the house and find something of my own to do. I needed that because big changes were ahead for me, and I really didn't realize that right at that time.
What I found in going back was not what I expected to find. I expected to get some exercise and to relearn what I had forgotten. What I actually found was a whole bunch of encouragement, and people who would prove to be a rock to me when I would need it the most.
Little bits of encouragement meant for the whole class, were taken very seriously by me each week, and quite often, they were bits of hope that I held onto until I could get back to my next class. Things like developing a "black belt attitude about life", or that "a black belt is just a white belt that never quit", were actually quite life changing for me, since I always held more of an attitude of failure towards myself: "why try because I probably can't do it anyway".
I also ran regularly with my Sensei/friend, and those runs were like big gulps of water to a person who was parched and dry, ready to quit. She was so sweet to always remind me to hang in there---YOU CAN DO THIS, RANDI. WITH GOD'S HELP, YOU CAN DO THIS!
Much in my life has changed since then. I am now a single girl. After many years of marriage, things ended officially and my life was my very own. It might sound kind of exciting, but to say that it was terrifying is an understatement. I had never in my life lived on my own before, managing my own home and finances. Someone had always, in a sense, taken care of me.
I am a single girl, a single mom, and a single business owner. And pretty soon I am sure I am going to be a single Sensei with a black belt.
And that is so exciting.
Because for me, it's about so much more than Karate. It's about me being able to live my life all on my own. With God's help, I have made it this far and I intend to make it much farther. I intend to live all of my life with a black belt attitude: I CAN AND I WILL!.
So anyway, back to my Post-its. They are my visual reminder that I need to work for this. Just like everything else I have gained in the last several years, I have to work my butt off. The work is hard and I pretty much hate how it feels. I am sore constantly lately from running 4 miles a day and working out. I go to bed earlier because I am tired more often. But I will say that I am really happy that I am starting to see new muscles.
It's about time!
So, I might update here a little more often since I am getting so close and I am thinking about it so often. I seems silly not to share with you all this exciting part of my life.
The funny thing? I am questioning whether or not to even post this, because what if I fail in October? What if you all know that I didn't do well enough in my test?
Well, if I fail I will try again, because after all, a black belt is just a white belt that never quit.
And this girl doesn't quit anymore!